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Day 68 · Waiting for a Butterfly to Break Free from Its Cocoon
Yesterday at the park, I saw a butterfly emerging from its chrysalis.
Very slowly. First, an antenna peeked out, wiggled, as if testing the world. Then the other antenna, then the head, then the body. The wings were wet, crumpled, stuck to the body, like an unopened umbrella.
I crouched nearby and watched for a long time. I wanted to help, but didn’t dare to touch it.
After about ten minutes, the wings slowly unfolded. Not all at once, but gradually, as if someone gently smoothed them out. A few more minutes later, it flutt

Day 65 · Waiting for the River to Thaw
In the afternoon, I went for a walk in the suburbs and saw the river still covered with ice.
It’s not the thick, white, opaque ice, but thin, transparent ice, with water visible underneath. The sunlight shines on it, sparkling like a layer of broken glass.
Squatting down to look, I saw cracks on the ice surface, thin and winding, like rivers on a map. Following the cracks inward, I saw water slowly flowing underneath—calm, unhurried, knowing that spring will come.
It reminded me of childhood back home, when the river froze in winter and children played on

Day 62 · Waiting for a leaf to stand up again
The morning glory on the balcony was blown over by the wind yesterday.
The vine was leaning askew, the leaves pressed against the soil, and the flower buds facing downward, as if apologizing to the ground. I tried to help it up, but it was soft and couldn’t stand. Forget it, let it rest for a night.
This morning, I looked again—and it had stood up on its own.
The vine wrapped around the railing again, the leaves stretched toward the sun, and the flower buds also lifted their faces, pink and tender. As if nothing had happened.
I squatted there and w

Day 61 · The neighborhood after the rain, the air carries the smell of earth.
Puddles reflect the sky, a shallow pool, clouds swimming through it. The leaves are wet and shiny green. A bird is singing, hiding somewhere in a tree, its call crisp and clear, as if saying goodbye to the rain.
I stand by the window and watch for a long time.
Thinking about the market situation these days.
The group chat has gone quiet, no more sharing screenshots, even the KOLs who give signals have posted fewer updates. Someone asked: What should we do? Cut? Run?
I don’t know.
But what I do know is — the rain will

Day Fifty-Five · Stillness
Nine o'clock.
The city lights are still on, but the noise has quieted down. The distant sound of cars becomes faint, like it's filtered through a veil. The convenience store downstairs has turned off its lights, and the street lamps stand alone, casting tree shadows on the ground, perfectly still.
I sit on the balcony doing nothing.
No checking my phone, no listening to music, no thinking about tomorrow's tasks. Just sitting, listening to the sounds of the night.
Actually, the night has no sound. Or rather, the sound of the night is stillness itself.
Daytime is too n

Day Fifty-Four · The Noon Shadow
12:03 PM. The sun hangs directly overhead.
Standing downstairs waiting for a friend, I look down and see my own shadow—compressed into a tiny bundle, clinging tightly to my feet like a crouching small animal. Step on it once, and it dodges. Step again, and it dodges again. No matter how hard I try, I can never catch it.
Suddenly, I remember my favorite childhood game—stomping on shadows. Several kids would run wild on the playground, stomping on each other's shadows, and whoever's shadow got stepped on would lose. Back then I didn't understand: how could you ev

Day Fifty-Three · Swallows
There's a nest of swallows living under the eaves of the building downstairs.
Every morning at 5:30 AM sharp, they start calling. Chirp chirp chirping—not the harsh kind of noise, but delicate, fragmented chatter, like a family discussing where to catch insects today.
Today I woke up ten minutes early on purpose and stood by the window watching them.
The mother swallow flies out first, circles through the sky, then comes back. Then she takes the baby swallows and flies together—one, two, three, lined up in a row, disappearing beyond the other side of the building.
Th

Day Fifty-Two · Dewdrops
At 6:30 in the morning, on the grass in the company garden, every leaf is topped with a dewdrop.
Small, round, and shiny. When there is wind, they sway gently but do not fall, as if playing a game with the leaves.
Crouching down to look, the sky is reflected in the dewdrops. A cloud just happens to drift by, gets captured in that tiny water droplet, then drifts away. Another cloud, then it drifts away again.
Suddenly I realize that dewdrops actually exist for a very short time.
Once the sun rises, they are gone.
The short ones may last only an hour or two, the longer o

Day Fifty-One · Listening to the Rain
It rained all day long.
Yesterday was light, tapping gently against the glass, like someone lightly scratching with their fingernails.
This morning it grew heavier, splashing loudly, the rain canopy on the balcony being hit with a loud noise.
By noon it became lighter again, drizzling softly, like telling a very long story.
I listened to it all day.
I remember I used to dislike rain the most.
Going out was troublesome, clothes wouldn't dry.
Whenever it rained, I would feel anxious, always worried about missing something, always wanting to open an app to ch

Day fifty · Halfway point
The mint on the windowsill has sprouted new leaves again.
I remember the first day I wrote these words, I casually pinched off a branch and placed it in water. At that time, I thought, if I can keep it alive for fifty days, it would mean that some things don’t need to be forced to survive.
Now it has truly grown roots—thin and white, floating in the water.
Day fifty. Halfway there.
Looking back at what I’ve written over these fifty days:
Sometimes I write on an airplane, with the person next to me watching a movie, while I’m writing about the relationship